A New Path

Finally! My elevator is no longer stuck, and my roller coaster ride is over! I am joining the ranks of the employed tomorrow. What an uplifting feeling that is. I have already begun to dream how to spend all that money after all the bills are paid. I am positive I will have no trouble making that dream a reality!

The job is with a startup company that has infinite possibilities. I will be learning the workings from the ground up. This excites me. Everybody needs a new challenge once in a while. And even better, the office is about three miles from my house. I won't have to leave an extra thirty minutes early to get to my job on time!

For the first time in a long while, I have actually thought about cooking healthy again instead of cooking to end my stress cravings. Having a steady routine is extremely necessary for me in order to eat to live instead of eating to appease my frustration. Because the workplace is so close to home, I can choose to eat a light healthy lunch and be home early enough to cook a very healthy supper. This will get my weight loss back on track.

I will also have time in the mornings to make myself get into a healthy exercise routine before I sit at the table to drink coffee. I will even have time to work a puzzle or two in the paper. The exercising will help me to start firming up the parts that have been a little saggy since I have lost forty pounds, and perhaps stave off any other sagging parts as I lose even more. And what is even better, I will have money to go out and buy some new clothes! That is what I have been waiting for!

I did not meet my goal of losing an additional twenty pounds by end of summer. But Emmy, my support group guru, reminds me that I need to cut myself some slack since it has been a very emotional spring and summer for me. That is true, I do need to do that, but the biggest hurdle I have is in thinking that I did not do what I was supposed to do. I did not meet my deadline.

But, as I start a new career, I do realize it is okay. I got hired. He thinks I can do what he wants me to do, and in order to be successful, I will do the job to my best ability. I can have do-overs at work if I mess up while learning, and I can certainly have do-overs in my personal life when I mess up. I need to remember that!

I am going to my family reunion next weekend, and it should be a blast. So far we are about up to eighty of us cousins, with several more still to be heard from. We will be loud, and there will be laughter. Some haven't seen me before I got fat, and very few have seen me since I started my lap-band journey. It will be interesting to see there perceptions of the old/new me.

I hope the jambalaya is fat free. Seriously, what are the chances of that??