Lost in Translation

I have been working really hard at getting my spiel down about the service we offer at my new job. I practice and I practice, with other people, in the car, talking to my friends. But when the time comes to talk with a perspective client, my message somehow becomes unclear and less focused.

It gets lost in the translation.

Don't ask me why; if I knew, I would fix it. I can't figure out if it is that I still truly don't get "it," or are my own doubts standing in my way?

If you have known me for most of your life, you already know the answer. I was raised as such a goody two-shoes that I just knew if I followed the set rules, I would be okay. Don't take risks, and you don't risk failures. I know that I can overcome failure and flubs. But I overly obsess over that one that I will not be able to fix and emerge whole again.

Now, why is that?? I am over sixty, had a fairly successful career, even overcame some personal adversities. So what is holding me back? Why can't I jump this latest hurdle?

My logical side of my brain says "just jump over it, dummy." But that message gets lost in translation on its way to my heart and my action. So, I guess it all boils down to fear. Not really fear of failure, but more likely a fear of success.

If I succeed in this job, I can do what I want to help my family, pay my bills, and live a comfortable life. Should be an easy hurdle, but I have made it seem higher than it really is.

The same is true with my dieting. I have been stuck for a while in a rut, and while I am working my way out of it, I have forgotten the message of the reason for the lap-band.

It got lost in translation.

I started this journey to get healthy. And I am well on my way to that end, even though I have not lost much weight in the last three months. And when I am in a temporary downward spiral, I must remember not to lose that part of the message. I still need to make wise choices, eat only healthy foods, and stay active.

I cannot afford to allow that part to get lost in translation.

As I get more comfortable with my job, I need to transmit my message with confidence, as if this is the most important piece of information that client will get today. And as I continue my lifestyle journey, I need to feel confident that I am on the right track, that I will ultimately achieve my goal.

I will not allow that part to get lost in translation!